War and Suicide

I was recently put in the path of a family plagued with both. This story can't be told in a blog. By the common laws of man I should have never gotten close enough to care. A young girl I crossed paths with that stole my heart as if she was my own daughter. Her path so close to my own a decade on front of me I see great dispair . She holds a strong title in my life I am helpless to reach out and at least try to save her. It was her suicide that put me in the path of her fathers angel whisper. He too commuted suicide hanging himself over her pool table! Two years later she follows his footsteps hanging over her pool table! He was a vietnam vet and only one of millions who never got over that war. This family continues to inspire me as I witness her children grow without her I know I don't want to die this way I don't want to leave my family with unanswered questions. I chose life.

Yellow ribbon...butterfly of hope

September 2011 i hit a bottom Ive never felt before Ive been there just never really felt the despair before not like this. Suicide awareness! Thoughts of suicide have always  been a constant part of my life my wolf cries silent for fear of bothering others as my mother did to me .Her wolf  cries were loud for help she doesn't really want.In these moments I truly wanted to die I even found myself planning to put my family in a place where they could mourn me properly! In a state of mind that words cant describe this song saved my life! My God is real and he will not forsake me he will not abandon my good cause. I must be still just a moment longer to ensure righteous justice. My wicked end will be avenged sevenfold again revealed through a song and a rainbow.this wicked end didn't just happen Ive known for quite sometime that this event wont have a good ending as i wait patiently first police report September 24 2002?I am a survivor of the yellow ribbon I have no right to take a life which includes my own...its not my life I want to end its the corruption that makes me feel that way this needs a conclusion.

My Creator

I'm in the image of my creator...kind and forgiving in my heart righteous in character driven by the unseen forces of my instinct of right and wrong I am intelligent and creative in my mind I love butterflies and rainbows I'm capable of wrath but choose not to I am tolerant and patient but I am no fool nor will I back down to the evil I encounter I am in the image of my creator he is the bright light at the end of my dark tunnel. Amen.Lisa Lynn!

My Father...Ferguson 1947

My God took his coat of life but left behind the spirit of a purple butterfly that saves my life on a regular basis as I sit here today in retrospect I wouldn't trade my relationship for anything! In1993 he came to me in a dream with great warning that's not clear but reassurance that is? December 2 1998 that event happened that would change my life forever! The conman and a house I'm bankrupt and homeless with little to no hope for a recovery.Although I take my share of the blame I refuse to take his too. My testimony is only one of millions that may need Christ with a rifle! 13 plus years he knows my every move? How why what?... It hasn't ended so its hard to tell the story but I'm going to try one more time? I still don't want to believe this shit is real! But it is as me and my boys are witness it's real!

Greater Good

Hes not coming on fluffy white clouds as we are nowhere near ready for that. He is already here he came as a thief just as he said he would on a dark storm cloud with the thundering sounds of an electric guitar and an army of angel whispers to set things right.Satans six is complete its now time  to reveal the mystery of his seven.Hes not going down without a fight to catch the pig one must be ready to roll around in the mud. He came as a humble jesus he will return a wrothful Christ for just a moment he must show his strong arm. Only one example for all of eternity to witness the answer the great point in question of father times sole righteous authority and why evil can never rule any realm of time.To those who love our humble Christ and pray for fluffy white clouds never loose that faith just know first he must take down the beast of Satans six CORRUPTION!